ophelia79's Diaryland Diary

things have got to change around here.
i have thought, more often than not, about scraping this thing entirely.
mirroring the life on the other side of this glass, i have run away. as though relocation will change the facts of who i am.
i really don't know what i'm going to do with this thing.
i have felt, for a while, that i've lacked the ability to be honest anywhere.
it has more to do with me than anything. keep running to another spot until the honesty gets too honest and people know to much about you.
no longer in control, but at the mercy of others. naked before you, and always afraid that your eyes won't like what they see.

things have got to change around here. the rest of this may dissapear for a while.
i have to detach myself from who i used to be long enough to figure out who i am now.

i am too fond of remaining vague, but i've tried to expand on various ideas here, and it's just not working.

i would love to talk to people right now. i'm tired of putting myself out and not feeling a response. in general. i need interaction.

you know where to find me.
if you can't figure it out then you're probably incredibly dull and i don't want to talk to you anyhow.

much love and goodnight.

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