ophelia79's Diaryland Diary

i have been busy privatizing entries. thinking about how foolish i was to write some of the things i did. but jennifer at 21 was so very different than jennifer at 24. more cautious. more guarded. still not so grown up to feel out of place on a dinner date.
i don't think i'll ever feel old enough to be comfortable with the idea of dating. odd.

random facts about the past week.
went on another date. nice guy. no "click". no problem. think he would make for good company though, friend-wise, but i will get and have to give the necessary 'brush off', because that's just the way things work i guess.
much has been bought. cds including his name is alive, september 67, etc. the latest copy of shredding paper. a microwave. a nice rug and lamp from target. bathroom accesories. an iron and ironing board. a grill. most of this spending can be justified, minus the magazine and the music.
i got a promotion. will be staying here, just outside of dallas, to my dissapointment. but the promotion is a good thing.

i have felt very dull all summer. i mean, actually i haven't. i've just hit a very slow spot in my life; a quiet time emotionally. and i feel like people expect me to have more going on. but i just don't. so all apologies, those of you i talk to, for the fact i make for totally non-stimulating conversation these days.

summer is almost up. will end it with a bang, maybe. and a couple of consecutive nights at rubber gloves, come the end of august. a slew of good shows coming up.

i wish i wanted more right now but, in fact, i am happy not to think alot and not think very deeply.

i need a swift kick in the ass.

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